I know I’ve been missing a lot lately, so I thought I’d do a post for those who have been wondering. I am slowly realizing that with just one of me, it’s impossible for me to do everything I need to or want to do. 🙁 There simply isn’t enough time. I’ve neglected posting videos on Fanta’s website for a couple months because I have been so engrossed in yard work: cleaning up areas, cutting the grass, maintaining my flowers in the greenhouse, getting things planted, pulling weeds… For those who do yard work, you know there is always something to do. As a side thing, I have been working hard to turn my gardening hobby into a business, but I see that doing Fanta Productions and a gardening business aren’t in the cards for me. Don’t worry, I’m not quitting Fanta. I’m just a little sad that I can’t find a happy balance with both of them. Maybe one year…
I also teach Zumba once a week, but I can’t seem to make time to find and learn new routines to teach, so I am getting bored with it. That’s not like me at all… I LOVE Zumba! I also try to attend another instructor’s class twice a week. Lately I’ve been skipping her classes because of my constant issue with foot pain. I have plantar fascitis in my left foot that came out of nowhere this past September, and now there’s not a day that goes by where I don’t have foot pain. {Exercise they said, it will be good for you they said…. until you start having foot issues from it…} Because of this, I can’t push myself harder during Zumba for fear of making it worse. I admit, it’s a little depressing when you can’t exercise the way you used to. My endurance levels are amazing during Zumba now, but I can’t push myself to that next level without paying for it dearly in my foot. 🙁 And since I’m not able to work out as intensely and have ZERO willpower when it comes to watching what I eat, I have gained about 6 lbs since the first of the year. Because of that, I haven’t felt like being in front of the camera much. It takes time, lots of effort, planning, and willpower to eat healthier. One more thing I need to add to that every-growing list of “to-do’s.”
I also haven’t wanted to be in front of the camera lately because I’ve gotten burned out with it a little. Don’t get me wrong: this job rocks, and I am beyond grateful to be able to work from home. But, it’s still a job, contrary to what you may think. I think every fetish model periodically goes through burn-out phases, but it’s something that usually passes. This is also when you see me disappear for long periods of time on my social medias. While I might get burned out from time to time, I would still choose this job any day over a regular “9 to 5” job! I do love getting in front of the camera and being able to act out so many different personalities!
I also love building things and currently have 2 projects going on that I feel like I will never finish: a little writing desk (that I started building in February of last year) and a self-designed plant stand. I’m also into making candles I’d like to sell one day. I have a “fresh brewed coffee” one that is AMAZING! I guess you could really call me a jack-of-all-trades, but this Jack doesn’t have time for all the trades she wants to dabble in. Fetish model. Crafter. Woodworker. Gardener. Girlfriend. Cook. Zumba Instructor. Add in running errands (this seems to make up 10% of my life’s existence), grocery shopping (when I actually feel like cooking), and the day is over before I know it! It’s simply not possible for me to do all the stuff I need to and want to do, and this is something I am going to have to work on accepting as the frustration of feeling like I’m never getting anything finished or accomplished is pretty high right now. I feel like I’m running myself into the ground sometimes, and it seems there are many days I have nothing to show for it.
Jane Domino and I are leaving this coming Friday morning for the beach and will be there for a week. It’s a much needed vacation because I feel I’ve been stretching myself way too thin. When I return home, I hope to be refreshed, rested, and ready to jump back in the saddle. Eating healthier, incorporating different types of exercises (however boring they might be in comparison to Zumba), and focusing a LOT more attention on Fanta Productions are at the top of the priority list. Everything else will simply have to wait. 🙁
Sorry for the long post that’s more of me venting than an actual explanation. I just wanted you to have a little glimpse of my life outside the fetish work, and hopefully you understand why I haven’t posted much here lately. I don’t plan on getting rid of Fanta Productions, so don’t worry about that! Once I am back from the beach, I’ll start posting regularly again and be more active!
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